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Epiphany

The Last Hustle: From Impossible Darkness to Unthinkable Light
May 17, 2017,
Episode 4

Kenny Johnson was trapped in a life that seemed impossible to escape. You could call it a kind of hell. More than twenty years in prison, sometimes just fighting for his life. What he wanted was just to be free. What happened to him was beyond his wildest imagination. This month's epiphany story is about amazing grace. It's about discovering light in the darkest of places.

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