I am looking forward to more and am grateful for any continued guidance from additional courses as well as in person. My realization, through the course, is about how although it is only relatively recently that i have begun on this path that I am drinking fully of its beauty and truth. In gratitude

I didn’t appear to have any strong feeling about Gangaji as she sat with us and answered questions. As an old meditator, a lot of what she said sounded very familiar, with one big exception.

All the meditators that I knew would jokingly speculate how many lifetimes it would take for our minds to get quiet.  The way Gangaji spoke about it, it sounded like anyone could do it right now.  I thought to myself, “Yeah right.” Needless to say, I was a little cynical.

When the meeting was over and we left the hall, I noticed that I was feeling different.  There was all this energy in my heart.  I kept rubbing it and saying that she touched me in some way.  It took a while to realize that her Love had penetrated my heart.

In that first encounter I realized I didn’t have to suffer, that I am not my thoughts, and that there is a serene, unshakeable way to exist in this beautifully complex world. I am endlessly grateful for the ongoing revelations that continue to surprise me, often when I least expect them. Whether I’m facing pain or joy, ease or struggle, Gangaji’s uncompromising invitation to be still serves as my guiding light.

During my divorce, I opened to all the pain, shame, unworthiness, and despair I could find in 4 generations of divorces.

I discovered Self love, innocence and causeless joy.

Further in the video I am struck again when Gangaji talks about the "tricks of the mind." I had been asking myself constantly, "When will you produce the right thoughts?" and at this moment I was: ohhhhh, they are tricks!

Later on Gangaji says: "You are the awareness." Then I could let go for the first time of any definition or concept of me, the outer world, and the universe's history.

When Gangaji said “Be your Natural Self,” her transmission of impeccability and Love pierced my heart and I was overcome with an explosion of the bliss of Self-recognition. The Living Truth had been intimately spoken from inside of my heart to my heart. Truly, the moment of illumination is eternal. Beloved Gangaji takes everything false away until there is nothing left but Love Itself.

The turning point came with my first ever face to face meeting with Gangaji during an online retreat. She called my name and just in the way she said it, I felt welcomed to the core of my being and a deep permission to simply be here, exactly as I am.

Very shortly afterwards I found myself attending a Silent Retreat with her in Germany. I remember looking into her eyes trying to figure out with my mind what I had seen – of course useless! In an instant though, while I was sitting in the back of the hall full of people, I received her invitation as an opening into the infinite blue sky.

This moment has not ended, it is still ongoing. The light and presence that flow through Gangaji are continually teaching me to live a truly human life. The love that I had always felt inside was and is being confirmed.

Reality had suddenly flipped inside out. It was as though the body/mind/personality I had always believed myself to be took a back seat to the vast infinite awareness that was opening up inside me faster than my mind could track. It was, in fact, impossible to think a single thought. I saw with absolute clarity that this ground of being that was revealing itself to itself inside me was actually who and what I am. That who I truly am is what sustains this body and mind while remaining completely independent of it, incorruptible, eternal, and free. I understood all of this in a split second without mentally understanding a thing.