Are you trying to manage your experience or control your emotions? Can you welcome what is here without the hope of changing it or transforming it or driving it away? The addiction to the drama of suffering can be a nightmare.  But if you wake up in the nightmare, and actually turn and face what is chasing you, not knowing what will happen, without an agenda, without trying to fix it, what do you find? When we open to any emotion without our usual commentary, the possibility is that we might discover what we have been searching for all along. It’s made of the same substance as we are. It is joy.